although we're different types we were meant to be

Not now. 


But someday.

Watching the town run away

Sometimes a simple "hello how are you?"

Or maybe any sort of explanation.

Or even an acknowledgement.

Or willingness to sit in the same circle as I am.

Or any proof you've ever known my name.





Any of that would be nice.

I can watch a sunset on my own

Sometimes I know really talented people. And sometimes my friends are in a band, an actual legit band where they are actually good. Please go listen to this Wonderful Song by His Name is Simon. Then like them on facebook. Im seriously in love. Way good people. Promise.


Go check it out. Seriously. do.

I'm gonna wash that man right out of my hair

One time I looked like this.

Then after 8 hours something happened.

 So now I will get less tickets. Be 10 times as likely to be helped if my car breaks down on the side of the road. And have more fun. Oh baby.


This week has been CRAZY!!!

Trips to Jamba with a best friend.
The obvious hair change.
Wrestling Lydia in Andy's front yard.
Acting Up heck week.
Working every day.
Tents.
Seeing "Faith" the musical. Oh boy.
Playing Fifa and watching/falling asleep to 6th sense with Joseph.
Yogurtland twice in one night. With shannie, Lyd, and Mays.
Practicing to sing in church.
3 different appointments.
Taking Lyd's family pictures.
BJ leaving. but I get a keychain!
Sleeping at lyds twice.
Being abandoned at a park, thanks for that one bud.
Good chats with Stook and source code.
A little bit of stalking....
Thinking Andy's parents were mad at me for being loud but actually just wanting to meet me because I was in Liken The Scriptures.
Sleepover with Mare and Jayme.
Lunch at Hayley's/ being allergic to anything 81.
Lesson and practicing with Wojtek.
Jamba with my cute little sister.
Chance's farewell with my farewell buddy, Tanner.
EarthFruit yogurt and Dr Mario with the fam.
Visiting redhead at work and getting as many free samples as I wanted.
Tunnel singing with Sarah and Maysie.
Grandma's 80th birthday party./ ANNA coming! :)


Wow. that's a week.

We shall see if blonde is really better.

I was praying that you and me might end up together

Some celebs look crazy like each other. Maybe it's true that we really do all have a twin somewhere out there.
Seriously though...

America vs Jordin

McSteamy vs. Leonadro

Danny Shay vs. My boyfriend

Natalie vs Kiera 

And in my opinion the complete winner,
Zooey vs. Katy

Get eaten off the web

How do you explain to a barely english speaking polish kid what an ex-boyfriend is? 

Yeah. It's kinda hard.

We sold our clothes to the state

You seem quite shy, but you’re oh so cute
And I’m the kind of girl that would love to be yours if you'd asked me to
So just take a chance, try to hold my hand
I swear I’d never let go
Just let me know if you’d be my man




And we keep driving round in circles afraid to call this place our own




I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day when I don't miss those rude interruptions




Just a drop in the ocean,
A change in the weather,
I was praying that you and me might end up together.
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert,
But I'm holding you closer than most,
'Cause you are my heaven.


This is the way I need to wake
I wake to you
And you never left me
All that I'd dreamt had been untrue
Open my eyes
I see sky




There's no good reason for
Giving up
All this mess is just bad luck
So please don't lose yourConfidence in me




We'll be washed and buried one day my girl
And the time we were given will be left for the world
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay





I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home




























welcome back

The kind of Love that quiets the world

Sometimes I wonder honestly what dreams mean. All the theories, all the ideas about if they mean something and how sometimes they are important but some don't mean anything. How do you know?

My dreams are crazy. I honestly can't give them justice by explaining things.

I don't just dream. My dreams give me emotions. Really strong emotions that occasionally I can't shake off for days. My dream last night was more stressful than my actual life. And now I feel more stressed about my actual life! I don't think that's fair, or normal.

Many of my dreams are things I'm afraid of. But not heights, or spiders like the answers I would put on a survey.

My mom will die. Someone I love will tell me how much they hate me and then leave forever. I will be alone, last one of Earth. School will start and I won't be ready, I won't have anything, I get lost. My family will disown me. I will get kidnapped. Things I want most are visible but I can't ever reach them.


My dreams stress me out. They leave me with awful feelings. Sometimes I wake up with tears. I can't shake off what the dream made me feel. And it stays with me.


Dreams shouldn't stress me out like this.