I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When I stumbled upon pictures I tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head

{The Healing Time}

Joyful and Triumphant

Family is the greatest.

"We have the gospel. We have our family. We have everything."

Gonna write you a love song

Take me again on a ship in the sky.


I'll jump overboard if you're by my side.

When I in awesome wonder

"Make your trials worth it."


                               -Stephanie Nielson

That thing called love

"And you make a living?"

"I make a life."

Awake my soul

It's appropriate to take a night out as you please.
Just as it is appropriate to cry when the opportunity permits itself.

Sometimes removing your self is the appropriate thing to do.

Words. Thoughts. Situations. Feelings. Emotions.




Heart in a Box

Ain't he the one who pulled the rug?

In 5 days and 1 year in the past one phone call changed the next six months. Technically the rest of forever.

Strange how one little thing can do that isn't it?




How about this December? Christmas at home? Strange. 

Underwater

I love this video.


Something about it.

I just wanna be little ol' me

Sadies was a blast. Even if my date was on crutches, didn't matter, we worked those things!
Dinner was FABULOUS. My cute, wonderful sister spent so much time making it for us and boy, it was amazing.
"Things" so funny.

Comp was great this weekend! I placed 6th in Latin and 5th in Standard.
I got 3rd in cha-cha over-all :) yeah boi.

Our first round of standard we looked at the wrong callback list and didn't see our number. I was so upset I went and changed into my street clothes. I was sitting by my mom when they paged LAUREN FABER to the floor! I BOOKED it to the dressing room, even knocked a kid over on the way there. I whipped my dress on and ran to the line-up where I made a random girl do my zipper and everything. I wasn't even wearing fishnets. When I ran onto the floor they played "Hallelujah, Hallelujah song" It was hilarious. And then making finals was so amazing! Good comp weekend for sure.

Lots of homework to catch up on this weekend though. I missed school friday and I have to miss again for the play on tuesday. I hope that turns out well. Bren is doing an amazing job.


My friends are the best. I must say I'm so lucky to have them.

And my family is wonderful as well :)


San *Diego in 9 days.

The chain from off the door

"I'll always love you. Even when I don't like you, Ill always love you."

I need to know how to live my life as it's meant to be

I've been happier today then I have been in a long time.
I woke up with a good clear mind, ready to seize this day.
I chose not to let the things that usually get under my skin to bother me.
I decided to love instead. I decided to trust myself.


Today I liked myself.
I don't know if that's happened in a long while either.


Today I loved other people as they are.


I smiled a lot today and I loved a lot today.
I was myself today, and even if I seem bothered I know they just love me and want me there.
And I'm grateful for that.




I thought today. And I didn't forget.
I never do.




I took chances today. Even if they were small I still took them.
I took chances to let me do things my way, the right my way.


I cried today. But not for you.
I cried for who you were. For you are not that person anymore.


I felt today. I knew myself and even what I wanted.
I spent time with people that I care about and even got things done.
I listened. To music, the spirit, to people, to laughter, to everything good.


And I felt it. I felt a difference.

Today I love you. Just like I did yesterday, and just like I will tomorrow.

I ate, and I sang, giggled, played, and jumped. Today I can't stop smiling.

Things are different. but grand.

Yesterday I called for help. Just trying to wake up everyday. Trying just to hold myself together by the fragile threads no one else can see. Sometimes I can't. Most days I do just that: simply hold myself together.


But today? Today I had nothing to hold up. It was all floating. Today I delighted in simplicity.




(Life, you're welcome to stay this way. I quite like it)

Didn't I my dear.

You said you would be my go to. But you left too.

Now what do I do?





(come back?)

Thankful for dance.
For the future.
For the past.

November. Thankful.
Novemeber 2nd.

Today I am thankful for seat warmers and kind people who let me sit in their warm car.

Love will keep us together

I love you, I'll always love you. I just don't like you right now.



One Day. Interesting Movie.