I need to know how to live my life as it's meant to be

I've been happier today then I have been in a long time.
I woke up with a good clear mind, ready to seize this day.
I chose not to let the things that usually get under my skin to bother me.
I decided to love instead. I decided to trust myself.


Today I liked myself.
I don't know if that's happened in a long while either.


Today I loved other people as they are.


I smiled a lot today and I loved a lot today.
I was myself today, and even if I seem bothered I know they just love me and want me there.
And I'm grateful for that.




I thought today. And I didn't forget.
I never do.




I took chances today. Even if they were small I still took them.
I took chances to let me do things my way, the right my way.


I cried today. But not for you.
I cried for who you were. For you are not that person anymore.


I felt today. I knew myself and even what I wanted.
I spent time with people that I care about and even got things done.
I listened. To music, the spirit, to people, to laughter, to everything good.


And I felt it. I felt a difference.

Today I love you. Just like I did yesterday, and just like I will tomorrow.

I ate, and I sang, giggled, played, and jumped. Today I can't stop smiling.

Things are different. but grand.

Yesterday I called for help. Just trying to wake up everyday. Trying just to hold myself together by the fragile threads no one else can see. Sometimes I can't. Most days I do just that: simply hold myself together.


But today? Today I had nothing to hold up. It was all floating. Today I delighted in simplicity.




(Life, you're welcome to stay this way. I quite like it)