How hard it is to make it look so easy

Stop searching. Forever is on its way.

Don't look any farther. Forever is on its way.

Be patient. Forever is on its way.

What if the paint chips from the wall?

I miss this.

I miss this

I miss this.

I miss this too.

I miss this. 

I miss this. 

I miss this.

I especially miss this. 

I sometimes miss this.

I always miss this.

I would rather be alone than pretend that Im alright

Rough morning.
I don't enjoy breaking down. I really don't.
I don't enjoy working so hard for something and having it all fall apart either.


But God sends little gifts when we need them most.
Best Friends
Old partners supporting you
A wonderful mama
Placing 6th
and Old friends buying you vintage lace dresses at a garage sell for your birthday :)

those were gifts I needed today.

Forever always seems to be around when it begins but forever never seems to be around when it ends

Lately I've been thinking about people. It's so strange to think where everyone was the year we entered high school and to now.


I have so many people I thought I would be best friends with forever who have now deemed themseleves too cool for me.


I have friends I never thought I would be close to, or imagined interacting with everyday.


I've been thinking about those people who you didn't see coming, who broke out of their shell.


How everyone seemed to gain grasp on the whole being a teenager thing.


People found out what they want to do and are more comfortable suited to themselves. It seems everyone has matured so much.










So what happened to me?








How come I forgot to grow up?

I can't move the mountains for you

I recently had a conversation with a friend about how one small event can make such a big difference.

So thank you for going to Wasatch for a year.

Thank you for sharing an Orange with me.

Thank you for being my standard partner.

Thank you for my english partner assignment.

Thank you for writing that song, Kate Nash.

Thank you for sharing my cereal.

Thank you for picking the dance partners.

Thank you for not putting me on JV.

Thank you for moving.

Thank you for slapping me.

Thank you for riding my bus.

Thank you for wanting to watch HSM the night it came out.

Thank you for taking me to Africa.

Thank you for visiting that night.

Thank you for your dishonesty.

Thank you for being my leader.

Thank you for coming to my show that night.

Thank you for letting me sleepover.



Thank you to all the little moments that literally altered my life.

Would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Hey you. yes you with the hair. And the hand and the face and the stupid car.




Glad to see you happy. Go be happy. I know I am.



Without. you. 






Freedom is wonderful.





Unless you have things like lessons. Dr Appts. Dance. Homework. Early morning seminary. Student gov. Yearbook. Journalism. Laurel's pres. A job. Stake youth committee. A capella. School Musical. Acting Up. Family. Scriptures. young women's lunches. ACT. Applying for Colleges. Pictures. And whatever else gets thrown at you.


But honestly. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love it like this.

And someday. Ill get to drive down to the lake too. And listen to music. And think.

I don't care to be forgiven

ACT is conquered. and for that I feel someone should bring me a Jamba or something to honor this feat.

THIRD time taking it. Too much ACT.

this time was just like it always was. Rocked the English and reading. Bombed the math and science.


Hopefully the gap is less than 12 point between my sub-scores this time eh?

gee gee gee gee baby baby

All my hopes. and some of my. dreams. Almost came true tonight.


One involved a g8. one involved cutting of my left foot. and one involved that's right you heard me, well almost. cause I haven't said it yet. A PENGUIN.

If any of you love me. PLEASE buy me a penguin when they aren't sold out anymore. They are only $25 (dollars). I'm really lonely and need a penguin. I need it more than Zenon is a supernova girl. I got chills just writing that. It must be true.

I would be a wonderful penguin owner because I don't know how to fly. I have two feet. And I have parents. Therefore I am perfectly in harmony with the penguins and would be the greatest owner they could possibly have.

Buy for me and I'll love you for a little while.


thanks that is all.