OVERWHELMED
You know that moment when you look in the mirror and see that you're the largest girl present, and your partner is AMAZING, and telling you what you are doing wrong (because you are doing EVERYTHING wrong), and your coach is yelling faster, better technique, you didn't spin together, and then you're thrown into 3 bachacadas out of a double spin that was preceded by a kick that when you attempted your coach said "oh my" with a look of horror, and then your feet kill and your toes are bleeding, and you're not even sure of everyone's names, and you're thinking HOW ON EARTH DID I EVER MAKE THIS TEAM?!?!
Well. For those of you unfamiliar with this moment, let me tell you, it is one to make kittens cry.
I am completely in over my head. I feel so much from everywhere right now! And seeing my Timpview family made it all the harder. I LOVE the family. I will miss them like crazy. But I AM ready to push myself this year. I like being scared at rehearsal. I enjoy being driven so hard I don't DARE to give anything but my all. But.... I miss my family. A lot.
School isn't helping currently. My dumb dumb schedule won't flippin work out, which is lame because my classes all fit perfectly the school just decided not to put me in the ones I signed up for. And that means I have to get all of my supplies for school. And be ready for everything that comes with it.
Not to mention people. Goodness. They don't ever stick to what they say do they?
Right now I just feel utterly overwhelmed. I hope that I can cope.
Like Soul Surfer said, I don't need easy, I just need possible.
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