Please look closely and find her before she fades away

I feel overwhelmed.
That kind of feeling when you get after reading a good book and you don't want it to end.
When you honestly feel what the characters were feeling.
When you feel your life is so boring and meaningless in comparison that you have so much you need to do and can't bring yourself to do any of it.
That feeling when you had a horrible race and all you want to do is improve but you injured your flippin hip which detains you from not only running, but dancing as well.
When you feel like you've been pushed back into a sea of people that are never going to change their opinions about you.
When you basically have the same people in all of your classes.
When people's sarcasm pushes you over the edge.
When you know you miss the thing that you long to have most, but can't.
When you can't find a dress for homecoming.
(when you're SO excited you got asked :) :) :) ))
That feeling when all you ever want to do lately is sleep.
Or when you're forced alone for hours on end and can't find anything to do with yourself.
When people saying anything makes you want to punch them in the face.
When you have creepy dreams that haunt you because they were so disturbing and frightening.
That feeling when you think you're losing connection with everyone.
When you can't figure out your schedule because it's honestly so crazy.
When you're afraid of talking to people.
Or when the lady who is making your dress won't answer her phone and you miss an opportunity for an appointment you likely won't be able to make time for in the near future.
When you just want life at ease.
Yet you're still completely happy through all of this?
Even if you don't show it?
But really are having a great-crazy-fun-wonderful time?

yeah. That's how I feel.